Here I set…on this man made rock wall

Listening to the cicadas

I can’t think of a thing to write

The end of the Summer is nearing

But the only thing this means anymore

Is the time for changing season

Moving from smothering warmth to beautiful breezes

That brush over your skin and through your hair

Laced with the cooling respite of fall

My eyes keep drawing from the trees

To the falling sun as it sinks

Past my sight bringing this days end

The first star appears in the sky

‘The clouds getting darker and heavier

As they move over the city

The last streaks of sunshine disappear

With the coming of nightfall.

A couple of sparrows rehearse a slow sweeping tango

As the lights flicker on, one by one.

It truly is beautiful 0 the combination of calm

In the middle of hundreds of thousands

As though finding peace amongst anxiety of chaos

A necessity we fulfill without realizing we are even in need.

I set with my chin on my knee

Closing my eyes simply to listen

Hearing the rhythm, the beat of Nature’s heart.

Untempered by modern settings…

How often do we just set and hear what our world has to say to us?

What does it take to step outside

Purposely to enjoy what we are given.

Simplicity. Serenity. Beauty as it is intended.

Not forced – just there.

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The uncertainty has me terrified.
Eyes of the world keep me inadequate and scrutinized.
A place I don’t think I can survive.
I must make home where I am afraid and others don’t understand,
the more I try to help realize, the more I sink in the sand.
Setting camp on what is known as the Cursed Land.
My hands are reaching for the tools that every man must obtain,
But held back by the sickness that i cannot explain.
Doomed to a life, a place, from where i may not return.
Waving my arms but raises no concern.
A life of misery i have to live and learn.

I stumbled upon this write up / documentary of a group of guys that decided to trek through the Southern mountains of Alaska.  Their thread post-like layout of a story gives small details and unbelievable photos of the adventure.  This is probably one of the best things I’ve read or seen on the internet in a while.  It would be pretty amazing to attempt something like this, let alone pull it off the way they did.

I hope you enjoy as much as I did.

33 Days Across Wrangell-St. Elias NP, Alaska: The Southern Spiral (NSR)

Wondering how to register? How to post? Jerod and I will be implementing Tutorials as we go along on how to perform some of these actions. They will be posted under the category of “Tutorials” for future reference. You may find the tutorials section at any time by clicking the corresponding button on the top menu bar. First, I will cover registering as a new user. Soon to follow will be a General Posting Walk-Through, and then Advanced Posting Tips.

As always, if there is a suggestion as to how to do something or just general help, feel free to message or e-mail Jerod or myself. Thanks!

Registering as a New User

1. VR MAIN MENU – Click “Register”.
2. LOGIN SCREEN – Enter your desired username and e-mail address. Note, Vast Reality does not send spam of any kind.
3. E-MAIL – Open your e-mail and write down the password sent to you.
4. VR MAIN MENU – Click “Log In”.
5. NOTICE – You will receive the message, “You’re using the auto generated password for your account. Would you like to change it to something you’ll remember easier?” Of course, we recommend you do. Simply scroll down to the password field to change it. Then click, “Update Profile” to save.
6. LINK AT TOP – The link at the top of the dashboard which says Vast Reality is a link to the main page. Click it at any time to return to the Vast Reality main page.
7. VR MAIN MENU – While at the main page, click “Site Admin” to return to editing profiles, posting for authors, and editing comments. Here also, you will find all “Pending” comments.
8. NEW USERS POSTING – New users are registered as “Subscriber” level and have only the ability to read posts and comment. To be able to post new topics yourself, you must be an “Author”. Contact myself or Jerod in order to be changed to this status. To post a comment, simply click “Comments” under each post. If this is the first time you comment, the original author must approve the comment within their dashboard. Once this is done once per author, they do not have to approve your further comments.

Any questions? Send e-mail or post a reply to this topic.

The long awaited arrival of WordPress 3.0 is finally here.  Our very own Vast Reality is already up and running this latest version of WordPress, which was officially made available today to the general public, and at first glance, I can say that I am heavily impressed.  There are quite a few UI updates that make the dashboard feel lighter and much quicker.  I’m excited to dig deeper into the release to see what other hidden gems it has.  If you don’t have time today to play around on the new dashboard, take a few minutes and watch the WordPress 3.0 Video Tour below, or you can head over to the official WordPress.org blog for the full details.

Hope you enjoy the new and improved functionality as much as I do

All my plants are dead now, leaving a crimson shadow of ther once briliance.
My wilted, once beautiful, roses as dry as dust.
What is happening here…
Why wont the sun shine like it used to?
No clear light to feed them, no water to quinch thier dying thurst.
Everyone is gone.
In This Place visitors are the demonic ghosts of my dearest friends and the darkness thats never left unfelt.
Starving of an appetite i can never fill, Here, my thurst can never be satisfied.
Forever is Here, in This Place is Hell.

Never give in,….Never back down,…..

Never say i give up.

Never quit

Never underestimate the power within.

Look deep inside, even if you think its to deep

find a source,

find that light.

find a way.

Hold your head up high

hold your weapon with pride

for this is war…….

but never forget we are all……

Brothers in Arms.

No one can come with me to where I must go. A place black as coal and cold as ice. To wrap my mind in anxiety and sorrow. And to leave this place full of stimulation and reaction. To a cocoon custom made for me. When the mind gets no better and no worse.

Sacrifice all happiness for no more pain. Sacrifice yourself to feel a little numb. Take on every worry and every sad thought. Remember every painful memory all at once. And slip away into the darkness where you can’t be seen. You can’t be seen and you can’t be touched. The world doesn’t exist and you choose not to acknowledge.

All the pain can’t match the joy I allow myself to feel. Stored all inside the actions I worshiped are killing me now. So different inside the show I portray out. The way my heart feels is the exact opposite to the face you remember. I’m hurting more than myself by feeling this way. So goodbye for now to a journey that begins far, far away.

~ May, 2007

Something tells me there’s something wrong in my life. When I have images of standing in blood with my favorite knife. When the sun never rises to offer a new day. With hidden thoughts that I dare not to say. When I wake up and I don’t care to rise from bed. Would the world worsen if I were dead?

Because I have nothing to share for ALL my pain. I have nothing to give to all those who depend on me. I reform to act out the thoughts that race through my brain. When I could swear I had wings to fly away with to be free.

I thought I could take any quest that came my way. Now my defense is so shattered, at any chance I run away. I say that my wall is too damn tall to climb. But demons influence evil through me all the time. Then again happiness doesn’t come from just who you may be. Take a chance, make a risk, you’ll find out, you will see.

~ Summer, 2007